So Long, Dude!

Wow, I haven't been writing for quite sometime - both here and my blog. I don't know what keeps me busy, or rather 'occupied' - but I'm sure I found myself pretty too much things to be thought about I end up with nothing to be written once I reach for the keyboard.

Unbelievable? Believe it.

Updates, updates, updates - nothing much to tell. Academic life is okay, four quizzes has passed. Social life is pretty much the same, few friends and colleagues are all doing fine Alhamdulillah. Personal life? Sucks, but hey, I'm as happy as I can be.

Life doesn't always turn out the way you plan, I remember someone's quoting that.

Alas, I found myself a little bit of motivation to keep me going on, a glimmer of hope, a drop of inspiration. Though it might from times to times slip away, but I can do one day at a time - I'm confident of that.

So long, I will be back for some another time.

*Ever feel like one day you wake up, from a dream so sweet it holds you deep into sleep - and then when you open your eyes, it hits you; a pang of sudden emptiness - it was not real. You feel inside you crumbles, shattered into pieces - and it hurts very much?

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assalamualaikum semua! setelah agak lama membuat kajian akhirnya saya rasa sudah sampai masanya saya menerbitkan hasil kajian saya. hasil kajian ni adalah dari apa yang saya lihat, bukan dari dengar2 cakap orang atau sumber2 yang mengarut. mungkin lepas ni korang akan sedar kelebihan masing2 yang terpendam dan seterusnya merealisasikan cita-cita terpendam tu.....

Mun: mun suka menyanyi dan penyanyi kegemarannya tentu sekali kumpulan nasyid Zulfan dan Barbara Streisand(mun ada pengalaman manis ngan nama Barbara Streisand) . jadi saya fikir dia nak jadi penyanyi agaknya. pastu sejak akhir2 ni dia macam berminat nak jadi pengacara rancangan A-R-T attack dan selalu jugak pegi website seorang hero korea (nama dirahsiakan)...

Che Ann: saya amat yakin satu hari nanti Ann boleh jadi jurulatih taekwondo. kalo korang nak tahu, Ann sangat pakar melakukan aksi taekwondo especially "side kick". kalau tak caya, suruh ar dia demonstrate.

Sitot: sitot pulak suka sangat mendengar, melihat, dan mendekati kaset2, tak pun cd2 "minus one"....mungkin dia minat nak bukak kedai kaset dan cd "minus one" bila dah abis belajar nanti. kot-kot lah.

Yati: semua orang tahu dia nak bukak kedai buku. tapi ramai yang tak tahu dia sebenarnya minat jugak nak bukak recycling center. sebab, tiap kali saya tanya" yati, barang2 macam ni biasanya yati simpan kat mana?". yati akan jawab sambil tersengih "yati suka buang je". bila saya tanya lagi pada hari yang lain dan untuk barang2 lain, dia tetap akan jawab masih lagi sambil tersengih "yati suka buang je". jadi sudah terang lagi bersuluh inilah cita2 terpendamnya..membuka sebuah recycling center.

Arshana: fuh! sangat sukakan lagu2 jepun yang agak rock. bila saya tanya kenapa, ini yang dia selalu jawab "Janji rock!". dia jugak tak leh berpisah ngan dia punya MP3. mungkin dia akan bukak kedai MP3 agaknya. saya rasa dia berkira2 untuk namakan kedainya "Kedai MP3 budak2 comel"

Kak Opie: mula2 agak susah jugak saya nak kenal pasti cita2 terpendam kak opie. tapi bila saya perhatikan betul2 bila kitorang sebut pape pasal French, kak opie akan menyatukan kedua2 tangannya dan meletakkannya di bawah dagu sambil berkata" Akak sangat suka French food", matanya juga bersinar2. jadi saya agak kak opie teringin sekali nak bukak restoran makanan Perancis.

Isma: saya dan isma selalu mengurat, maksud saya mengarut. kami selalu berangan nak jadi orang kaya, jadi datin, jadi businesswoman yang berjaya seantero dunia. cita2 kami memang tinggi. namun demikian, apa yang saya perhatikan isma selalu berangan nak bukak kedai emas dan zhulian. dia memang minat habislah. ari tu dia dah fikir nak namakan kedainya "Kedai Emas dan Zhulian (Isma & anak2)". jgn marah ye saya pecahkan rahsia awak. kami pun agak suka mengorat sebenarnya... especially ngan pak cik2 bas UIA sebab takut kena tinggal. kalo kena tinggal nanti kena jalan kaki.huhu~

sekarang nak cakap pasal budak laki pulak. kalo pasal budak laki ni saya tak pasti sangat. sebab tak rapat sangat ngan diorang. tapi ini hasil pemerhatian saya...

amer: selalu cakap pasal jadi student ni tak leh blajar aje, kena bersukan jugak. itulah ayat biasa dia. mungkin dia nak jadi ahli sukan kot

hajarfauzan: hajar sangat suka bergosip dan mencipta gosip2 baru.(tapi dia budak baik). saya rasa satu hari nanti dia mungkin boleh jadi hos untuk ranncangan "Tanya Hajar" tak pun "HF Live". sejak akhir ni saya dapat tahu dia tengah diet. bagus, bagus.

Lutfi: yang ni saya tak berapa tahu sangat. sebab kami jarang sekali berkomunikasi. kalo cakap pun pasal nak balik kampung. Contoh soalan yang ditanya:
1) balik bile?
2) balik nge mende?
sebab kami duk satu negeri. cuma dia duk kat bandar saya pulak duk kat pedalaman. rumah dia dikelilingi pantai, rumah saya pulak dikelilingi sawah2 padi yang menghijau.(pompuan memang suka cakap panjang2). jadi saya tak tahu apakah cita2 terpendamnya.

sekian sahaja untuk kali ini. Harap2 korang tak kecik ati kalo ada tersalah bahasa. ni semua apa yang saya rasa. dan tak semestinya betul. cuma kalo rasa korang memang ke arah cita2 yang disebutkan di atas, korang boleh berusaha dari sekarang. sekali lagi mintak maaf ye.
ni semua dihasilkan sebab dah tak larat nak tulis esei ungs.
oklah, semoga jumpa lagi!

Life is Beautiful

It's funny how life always takes turn to make clear to you, to teach you lessons of what is hapiness gained and hapiness lost.

I had a great time reading a book today, If You Could See Me Now written by the Irish writer Cecelia Ahern. The book is magical, you see. I couldn't put it down and was helplessly smiling, and laughing along the way I read it. I finished it in one whole day.

Feeling yet excited and fresh, the book really made my day.

Then, as much as I was happy something turned up - as if it's been waiting for me all the time in the dark, waiting for the right moment to sprang upon me - a dear friend had passed away, nearly a month ago, and I just know it.

A feeling of guilt welled up inside me, where have I been all this while? I was being so selfish and self-absorbed I didn't managed to even throw a single sms to get in touch - I would've known earlier.

Astaghfirullah, I'm speechless at my insensitive self.

You know, this dear friend of mine is very special to me - I had only known her for less than 24 hours. Nenek; as she called herself when she talked to me. Being a company to elderly is strange to me, but I'm easily drawn to them as I had never have the experience of having grandparents. Nenek was one of all who made me at ease, I was at a Kenduri and she was the one I'd look up to for protection when I felt lost.

Our companionship may be only for a brief time; but Nenek is someone I'd remember forever.

Al-Fatihah.

Finale!!!

Everything seems to fall back into places, I guess.

We couldn't take EOP, and having UNGS 2050 as the replacement instead. There's plenty of spare time this semester, Environmental group won't be having any classes the entire Monday, Wednesday, and Friday morning. I'm not sure how would I make of that - I'm a morning person.

Yes, moving on - I'm planning to throw a small makan-makan project next week (why does it always have to be me? haha) - It was originally proposed to be held on 24th of Dec, coincidentally (is there such a word?) a day before Arshana's birthday.

However, since the Food group will not be having their lab on that day - then Friday will do but on the afternoon is quite not possible because Environmental people have class. What about night? Will Arshana be willing to sacrifice her time going home? :)

Anyway, the makan-makan project is of course none other than Domino's Pizza. We still have plenty of coupon from the last time, and the expiry date would be by the end of this month. Thus, thou shall waste not!

Okay, this will be the end of it.

Aussie Mate?

The Kulliyyah of Science has decided to have an educational trip to Australia. Sounds real fun. It's from 8^th May to 14^th May, 2005. 6 days. Purely educational. Most of the places the students would be visiting are research centers, museums, universities and the like.

On the other hand, only 18 students will be going. Bummer. That's way too little. Those who are going are to pay RM 2000.00. Quite a steal if you ask me. Even the ticket would cost that much if we were to go on our own. But I suppose it's subsidized, so they can't send a lot of students.

Those interested are supposed to fill up the form, which was snapped up so fast. Good thing we managed to get ourselves one. In the form, you're supposed to write in your details, CGPA and a 'slogan'. Describe why you should go to Perth, Australia. Dang. I hate slogans.

Some were saying that we can't make it, if we are chosen, cause our practical training is during that time. I heard that one girl is trying to get them to move the date of the trip so that it would fall during the in-between semesters break, instead of during the short semester itself. Well, hope everything turns our fine.

So, you guys wanna go? ;)

The Need To Define Oneself

As of now I'm thinking, of why we need to like something; to hate something; to be obsessed about something; and to be scared about something.

For some reason, I think we have to have something that is uniquely ours - because we want to define who we are, because we want to tell others, to make clear to them - this is who I am.

I'm not satisfied with the answer, but this is what I've come to so far.

3rd Year, It's Different and It's Difficult.

Alas, the new semester has started along with all its mess and confusions - we're now offically third year students, and old.

Few changes are certain this semester, though of course, temporarily - nevertheless, it's inevitable.

Being no longer in the same class with others is quite different. At least part of the conversations is doomed to be incomprehensable, like when Arshana is talking about her food lab gadgets while Yati otherwise is talking about her unending animal rights fight. Imaginatively speaking, that is.

No more thought-sharing sessions cum plagiarizing for lab reports, or rantings of tiredness from the similar mounting assignments or intolerable lecturers and of course the end-semester final exam discussion rituals.

Well, in one way or another, we'll live through it in the end.

It's kind of lonely too, this semester. Well, I didn't mean lonely - of not having a friend or a lover of any kind. It's more of lonely - quiet, peace, solitude - but sometimes it hurts likewise.

Unlike the freshman, as they were excited of exploring the new atmosphere, finding new friends, looking for opportunities in clubs in societies. Being a sophomore is quite not the same I figured out, as we're near the finish line - we have enough friends, we have a clear thought of what we want in life, and the remainings to be finished is just, to be finished.

We had enough of confusions and questions, of trying something new or uncertain - what we need is more answers, and a constant dose of happiness in the rest of of this journey.