Tell Me I'm Crazy.

I was surfing through my favorite blog of Daphne Lee (a book columnist in The Star - Tots to Teen) when I came across this word - NaNoWriMo -. Excited by Daphne's spirit and her motto - "Sign Up Now, Regret Later" I immediately clicked on the link and signed up!

Well, I have a month to write a 50,000 words. Am I crazy? I don't know. But to think of it, I'll just sign up and go with the flow! Although I'm quite preoccupied by the festive season this month, if I managed to finish the whole thing; I'll end up with one complete novel regardless of how relevant or logical the plot or the character might be! I'm not yet sure whether to write in Malay or English, though.

At least for now I have one complete day to think of what I'm going to write and what would be my novel title. Besides, I don't have anything serious to do in the meantime because of the holiday and doing this can keep my mind off certain things; like daydreaming?

Why am I doing this? I don't know what exactly that inspire me. Maybe I just want to treat myself by doing something exciting once in a while. Or maybe I was moved by my dream of being a writer. Or else maybe there's no reason at all but it's just me being myself!

Well, here are the ideas that I might be writing on;
1. Science fiction, maybe I can use a little bit of my background basics.
2. Melancholic love drama. I'm too dull to use romantic phrases and gestures.
3. A philosophical literature. A bit of deep novel, thinking about life and everything.
4. About my life, this seems to be easiest.
5. A mixture of everything, definitely a yes! I will just babble all along the way until the end.

In Malay or English? Most probably in English.

Anyone else interested? Join in! Details at http://www.nanowrimo.org. It's not about whether you can write or not, it's about whether you have the gut or not! =D

Home Already!!!

All exams are done, the semester's over, and I'm finally home!!! I'm so grateful of time, a passing time is a blessing we could never comprehend without. Alhamdulillah.

First thing first, regarding our projek makan at Chicken Rice Shop. Alhamdulillah, everything went well and everybody's happy. Even better, it was concluded with Arshana treating us with Sundae from McD. Thank you, Arshana!

On a personal note, I'd like to thank everyone for all of the sweet presents; Isma & Nurul, Mun & Ann, Kak Op, Seetot, Arshana, Lutfi and Fauzan. This one I have to mention; to Mun and Ann - thank a zillion for that Bryan Adams's Room Service album!!! I was so surprised when I opened the wrapping that I screamed joyfully.

If it's Hyde for Arshana, or Ramli Sarip to Nurul, then it's surely Bryan Adams for me; his voice is heaven *dreaming eyes*.

Next, from now on things are going to be different for a while. No more class schedules, no more assignments, no more tests. It's so great to be at home, though there are few things that I did not expect. But I guess, I should stop having expectations.

There's remaining 6000 biscuits orders I've to complete during this last week of Ramadhan. It's going to be exhausting, and I'm not going to enjoy it; but I'll do it with a big heart for my mom! Then, the usual chores; my bedroom, the two bathrooms, the kitchen, the porch. *Sob* I'm going to take one thing at a time. And *sob* again, my cats are all missing!!!

Fuh, but I'm now getting older, my days here on earth are getting shorter; I'm not going to waste it by being miserable. I'm happy, fine and ok!!!

Selamat Hari Raya to everyone, jemputlah datang raya rumah nanti. :)

Interesting Article on Breast Cancer

It was posted on my friendster bulletin board. It was very interesting, knowing the possible cause of a cancer. So, I'd like to share it here. Besides, making this kinda entry will make us look more like a scientist once in a while :p

So, please visit this page:

http://www.pakdi.com/blog/archives/2005/10/cure_cancer_by_1.html

I don't know whose blog it is. Credit goes to ' ILLUSIONER' and 'PAKDI' (bukan nama sebenar) . Lol I don't even know who they are.

The Whisperer of Words, The Shaper of Thought.

I

There’ll be some point in your life when you’d feel suddenly you’re alone. What would you do? Do you breathe in the fear and sit tight where you are, or you just smile and go on walking forward?

The decision is yours, all yours.

II

I've fallen in love with poems, poems made me fall in love.

I was not so fond of poems before, but sometimes a month ago I found this poem;

I never was struck before that hour,
with love so sudden and so sweet,
his face; it bloomed like a sweet flower,
and stole my heart way complete.

My heart melt right away upon reading it, it was a poem by John Clare on first love. I found it in a novel by Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook. Strangely enough, I read the book many times before but I was never really noticed the poem. But that night, the poem just went into my heart, and fit my feeling perfectly.

Then, I was introduced to Walt Whitman and his collection of poems in Leaves of Grass; also by the author Nicholas Sparks. I found his poem so spontaneous, yet it is so deep and meaningful. There were thousands of his poems in Leaves of Grass, and I'll leave with you one of his poem that made me laugh heartily, because it's so true with me.

YOU WHOM I OFTEN AND SILENTLY COME.

O YOU whom I often and silently come
where you are that I may be with you,
As I walk by your side or sit near,
or remain in the same room with you,
Little you know the subtle
electric fire that for your sake
is playing within me.

Love can never goes to waste

I'm just a little bit attracted to this piece of sentence from the song Mun pasted below,

"When you love someone but it goes to waste,"

Not that I don't agree with it, it's just that I think love can actually never goes to waste. When you truly love a person, you have your heart, your attention, your passion all devoted for them; how can it goes to waste?

Even if you got left, or rejected even; you've made your choice and love should be the most beautiful thing you've ever done.

Fix You

Fix You by Coldplay

When you try your best but you don't succeed,
When you get what you want but not what you need,
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep,
Stuck in reverse.

And the tears come streaming down your face,
When you lose something you can't replace,
When you love someone but it goes to waste,
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home,
And ignite your bones,
And I will try,
To fix you.

And high up above or down below,
When you're too in love to let it go,
If you never try you'll never know,
Just what you're worth.

Lights will guide you home,
And ignite your bones.
And I will try,
To fix you.

The tears stream, down on your face,
When you lose something you cannot replace,
The tears stream, down on your face tonight,
The tears stream, down on your face,
I promise you I will learn from mistakes,
The tears stream, down on your face tonight.

Lights will guide you home,
And ignite your bones.
And I will try,
To fix you.

Lyrics courtesy of www.lyricz.com

Why would people want to fix you?Or is there something beyond the phrase 'fix you'?I have no idea at all.
Anyway, the song is great.

The Great Truth

I learnt the great truth today. The greatest truth I can ever get. It's painful, but I was glad. Allah has teached me tremendously through this short confusing period. I've learnt my lesson and I shall now be happy ever to lead my life knowing that I've been granted something out of this difficult time.

Thank you, to a dear friend, for showing me the way.