Au Revoir

It's been awhile since I wrote anything here. Lack of idea perhaps. Or maybe lack of enthusiasm.

Another 24 days to go before all of us head back to campus life, like it or not. It's been 2 solid years since we've known each other. It has been fun. It has its ups and downs. I never knew anyone from the opposite gender since now. And please refrain yourself from stating that I don't have a social life. I already know that.

In the semester ahead, we will no longer be in the same class since we'll be taking different concentrations. Not 100% at least. But there's still the nest following semester, and a year after that.

I sure would miss the LCD + laptop fixing things in the mornings. Eating lunch and dinner together. Copying each others' assignments, not always though.

Aahhh... Nostalgic.

Oh well. See you guys next semester. And good luck!

Of Smallville, Generalization, and Books!

Chloe: Someday, somehow; you need to share your inner with someone
Kent: Why?
Chloe: If not, you will be alone. Nobody will really be with your side.

Some people might be too sensible to agree with Chloe's statement, but I've always think it's true. Maybe for now I'd think that I'm doing just fine alone, or maybe I'd become dependent on every person I pass through. As I grow up however, I've come to realize that sooner or later I'll need and I'll have someone to share my steps with.

I'm particularly very much driven by the statement of Dr. M. Scott Peck;

two person in love are people that are able to live independently of each other but choose to live together.

and;

the only way to ensure yourself being loved is to be a person worthy of love.

II

I had a conversation with a friend yesterday and I happened to tell the story of situation where a lecturer once made a note on why it was us girls who pick up and assemble the laptop and lcds to the class when there were a bunch of guys whom tasks was usually assigned to. And, remember one of us answered; Kenapa mesti lelaki?

At the time, yes I was amused. Then this friend of mine added another insight to the situation, which I've come to think about and very much grateful for it to be pointed out. I once wrote in my Friendster profile; people loves to generalize. We tend to associate things generally such as; women are lousy drivers, guys are insensitive.

Why do we generalize? Why do we not see people as individuals? In case of ours, maybe us, doing those laptop and lcds assembly things, did not represent new-age-capable-independent-women-who-think-that-guys-are-hopeless, maybe it's because that's who we are, regardless of gender, we would be doing the same thing out of the same conscience and awareness.

Well, I didn't put this idea here to stir up some debate, it would be endless. It's just one point I think worth to be pondered about.

III

I bought few books; The Sunday Philosophy Club, Artemis Fowl The Eternity Code and mXe!. Hoopefully these books will keep me going for the remaining holidays. Ati the bookworm gene from now on is actively expressed!

Oh, yes. I found this really nice quote;

Blogging: What it reveals are noteworthy, but what it hides is more interesting.

Intriguing, isn't it?

Lutfi's personality test - very doubtful though

Hoho...jumpa mende alah ni kat blog mirul...aku pun acu cuba try test laa...cambest jer...

You Are 70% Weird

You're so weird, you think you're *totally* normal. Right? But you wig out even the biggest of circus freaks!

How Weird Are You?

You Are Chinese Food

Exotic yet ordinary.People think they've had enough of you, but they're back for more in an hour.

What Kind of Food Are You?

You Are 80% Boyish and 20% Girlish

You have a tough exterior - and usually a tough interior to match it. You're no nonsense, logical, and very assertive. Sometimes you can't understand women at all, even if you're a woman yourself. You see things rationally, and don't like to let your emotions get the best of you.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

You Are 20 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

Smile!

Life can be a misery sometimes, and being constantly happy is not an assurance you'd get in a perfect life.

Sometimes we don't need new information, we just need to be reminded!

Stop trying to be perfect, have less expectations. Expectations set up for anger and disappointmets.

Tips to keep cool;

1. Humility helps - Relax a little. Allow for others to sometimes get what they want.
2. Decide what is really important in your life - Have things in perspective, and don't get upset over details.
3. Accept what is - Don't argue with reality, it's a waste of time. When you argue with reality, reality wins!

Source: Andrew Matthews' Happiness Now.

Life Has Never Been Sweeter

I

For days you sweat yourself, with tears and blood. You lash out everything in the course of it; sadness, anguish, joys. You yearn, you question, and you wait. It was not easy, but you take anything as it come. This time you had learnt your lesson; that patience is the key.

Then, when it ends. When the moment comes, even it is for just one second - you have peace. And that moment of peace, you breath it in; all of it. Even there's more to come later, you do not let the moment pass; nothing is taken for granted.

Life, the very life itself; is a perfect bliss.

II

I'm having quiet raya this time, been staying at home with not so many people coming's over. It's nearly perfect, one of my favorite time; to drown in my favorite books with continous cups of hot chocolate or nescafe accompanied by subtle backgrounds of light & easy collections.

Certainly, I do not deny the comfort of a companion and a family though sometimes they indeed drive me crazy. :p

It's Eid.

Today is Eid, 1st of Syawwal 1426 and yesterday was Ramadhan.

My wish, Eid Mubarak to all of my friends. Taqabbalallahu minna wa minkum, in sya Allah.

lepas solat subuh...

hari ni mungkin hari terakkhir kita berpuasa.....
ada 2 perkara yang saya fikirkn semasa seorang2 di KLIA (old passenger travelling alone)hehe... dan juga yang saya fikirkan di rumah setelah melakukan sedikit pembacaan.

1) seringkali berlaku apabila kita tersedar untuk taat, hormat dan berkhidmat dengan baik tanpa rasa malas, tanpa rasa tak puas hati, tanpa apa2 saja rasa yang timbul dari hati yang tak berapa nak elok kepada kedua ibu bapa kita semuanya sudah terlambat.

2) seringkali juga berlaku, apabila kita tersedar untuk beribadah dengan bersungguh-sungguh, ingin meletakkan Allah pada tempat pertama dalam hati kita, kita juga sudah terlambat.

kemudian, saya terfikir mana satu yang paling saya takut..yang mula2 atau yang kemudiannya. akhirnya kesimpulan yang dapat saya buat ialah keduanya penting. yang pertama itu penting kerana redha Allah terletak pada redha ibu bapa. yang kedua itu pula penting kerana ia memang penting. itu tujuan kita hidup. apa sekalipun yang kita lakukan adalah kerana Allah.

kemudian, saya pandang diri saya...pandang dalam2. apa yang saya harapkan, apa yang saya panjatkan pada Allah dalam hati saya...
"janganlah hendaknya Allah bolak-balikkan hati ini setelah diberi hidayah, dan semoga Ramadhan akan datang masih jadi milik saya yang sempurna.saya takut.takut amat. saya mahu lakukan sesuatu....sesuatu untuk keluarga saya. berikanlah kami hidayahMu.

Kepada sahabat2 saya,
Mohon ampun dan maaf atas segala salah dan silap kerana saya ini cuma manusia.....
Selamat Hari Raya
jemputlah datang rumah. oleh kerana tahun ini mungkin tiada rumah terbuka, keputusan yang dibuat ialah hri-hari adalah rumah terbuka. jemput datang rumah ye semua =)