New Year's Eve Self-Introspection

The trip to Pergau was perfect, I will not be able to post the pictures as I haven't collected them from Pojan and Nurul, but I will tell you this, it was the needed break for all of us.

To Arshana (Happy Belated Birthday!), Isma, and Mun, all of you girls are very much missed!

Now, I'm bored and in dire need of continuous useless ramblings. So I decided to dig deeper in myself and complete the following tag:

1. What's your ambition?
The most important right now is to discover the direction of my spiritual self. Seriously, I'm lost.

2. Who is more important for you. friend or boy/girl friend?
I don't have a boyfriend. But if money is not an object, I would run miles for either of them. I think I have, but I lost my battle too once in a while. 

3. How often do you think of commiting suicide?
I used to think about it a lot a couple of years back, but thankfully I was too coward to actually do it. But these days I hardly think about it at all. I love my life, and I love everyone and everything that's in it I'm not prepared to leave them on my own will.

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
I think I have enough confidence to get what I dream and set to to do. But I don't think I have enough confidence to actually say I love you to people who matters the most in my life.

5. How many babies do you want?
I don't think I'm cut out to be the selfless, nurturing mother. But if I ever get to do it, I want 2 girls, so they can be friends with each other, and a boy for him to be a brother to them both.

6. Favourite perfume/fragrance?
I never really had a preference, I wear whichever smells nice. I am not big on splurging on perfume as well. The one I use so far tend to stick around Body Shop's Spring Orchid.

7. What's your goal for this year?
Finish my Master's degree, and try out for PhD application for the following year. Save 30% (10-10-10) of my scholarship (I'm on 15% at the moment). Be nicer to people.

8. Do you believe in eternal love?
Oh yes I do. But I believe in the perfect love which is worked and drilled on, not a given, happily ever after eternal love.

9. What's a perfect partner to you?-list 10
Oh God, I think after a while, I really get tired of this. If it's left to me, no one will ever get near perfect! Anyway, I'll list a few; Someone who has enormous dreams and astounding zest for life, someone who is not afraid to be who he is, and someone who can discern between meaningful and superficial. Is that too much to ask?

10. What feeling do you love most?
In the morning when I wake up knowing what I'm doing in life, knowing there're people I love who loves me, and knowing I'll not spend today searching for that empty space in my heart where God is still nowhere to be found.

11. What is your bad habit?
I am sometimes too vain to make the effort to be nice to people.

12. Is there anything you want to tell people that hate you?
I don't think about them. Because seriously, I might hate them too. So why make things worse?

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
Yes I do. For me friendship is something I build and invest over time, it's not something I simply collect to put in my portfolios. For the record, I still hate Facebook to this day for its superficiality, but I don't know why I'm still in it. I'm working on quitting.

14. Describe yourself?
I love books, everyone knows that. I'm also confused, I think everyone knows that too.

15. What do you crave the most currently?
Finding my ways to God.

16. What's currently on your mind?
I haven't worked on my final Media Advocacy assignment yet. I need to interview people, volunteers anyone?

17. What would you really like to do, like right now?
Physically, clean myself and take a bath. But deep down inside, I want to talk to my best friend.

18. What will you become in another 10 years to come?
Let's see, I will be 33 by then. The Director General of the Department of Environment, I hope?

19. What do you hate the most?
Not being able to change things. Especially my dirty hometown.

20. Who else do you want to answer these?
My friends, if they have the time.

Hye folks!

This is just a proposition.

A proposition.

At the first place, Tuan tak tau sejauh mana korang nyer plan, tapi plan kalu wat dekat Kelantan, advantage dari segi transportation.

Dulu Tuan pernah recci tempat ni on the way Tuan ulang alik Kedah Kelantan.

Tarikan utama (from my observtion);

1. tasik dan aktiviti air, memancing (saya provide rod untk 4 to 5 orang insyaAllah)

2. titiwangsa range - the highest land of peninsular

3. reflisea

4. dsbg

Tuan dah call Che Zaaba, orang tu cakap;

-chelet tu floating atas air, bukan atas angin.

-harga rm60 semalam.

-ada dapur

-kene masak sendiri

-rm10 charged untuk boat perhead, pergi dan balik ke chelet.

-rm10 untuk kenu...

anggaran gross costing mgkin dalam rm100 perhead, tu pun dah kire cukup mewah kot

-minyak kereta gi balik kelantan pergau rm30 (tak der tol, sbb tu ske dok klantan), dua bijik, so mgkin rm60

-chalet rm60, kalu amik 2 rm 120, kalu dua hari, baru rm 240.

-fud shopping rm1o0.

-boat, (kak sofi, yati, lupi, Tuan, ctot, azhane, nurul, mun) rm 80

-aktiviti air, nafsi nafsi2...kalu sapa nak try kayak atau apa2

-tiket bus ke kelantan, korang sponsor sendiri ya???

so dalam anggaran kos adalah dalam rm 500

actually saya dan pre-book untuk tarikh 26-27 disember. korang adjust la secepat mungkin. 24hb ke atas, saya dah free....

korang bley check sini Tasik Pergau Beckons Nature Lovers. Ala google sendiri jer Pergau, u'll see more beauties

A Weekend Away

Kawan-kawan,

Ambiklah cuti, jom kita pergi Tasik Chini. Stay a couple of days there. Just us.

The cost will take about 15-20/night.

God, so many changes around. I would really love to talk to you girls.

:)

How does the weekend of New Year's sounds to you guys? Say between 27-29 December 2008? I could pick you up from Kuantan Terminal, and we could all head to Tasik Chini in one car from there.

So far Nurul and Mun have almost confirmed they could make it, and Pojan as well. I can handle the bookings once everything is confirmed.

I have also talked to Kak Sofie and Ann, diorang cakap insya Allah the date is almost convenient for them as well.

I'll try to confirm with everyone so that I can make the room bookings before I left for Johor.

Latest Update:

So we shall go to Tasik Chini, :)

There's a tiny bit of a problem with the date, I'll discuss with Nurul over the weekend and let you know very soon.

Looking forward to see you girls (and guys)!

Dark Story of Mine --- Part 1

N: “We don’t need people like you here.”

M: “This faculty already has few people doing exactly the same field. To be clear, we have 3 tutors doing their Masters and 2 lecturers completing their PhD overseas. And I don’t wish you to be their rivals.”

M: “I can see your degree in biotechnology but we are all here doing basic science and I don’t think there is a place for you here.”

A: “Actually madam, I didn’t apply being under this faculty but it was mentioned in the letter.”

The atmosphere started to tensed a little and I’m getting confused. Start to blame myself. I’m not supposed to be here after all.

N: “So, we decide that you’re going to do bioinformatics since I can see you got an A for the subject.”

N: “But still I don’t know why you’re here. You are not supposed to be here. Not in this faculty. Well, if something comes out for example we might not need you working under this faculty but at least you can still survive with your bioinformatics.”

M: “When you’re graduated?”

A: “Aaa…actually I’m still working on my thesis.”

M: “Ohh…you haven’t graduated yet? So, how this happened? I don’t get it at all. Oh my, you’re full of charms.”

N: “Did they pay you being a fellow? How much?”

A: “Ahh..yes. About **** per month.”

N: “Beruntung budak2 sekarang. Belum graduate tapi dah ada orang nak bagi duit. Senang betul hidup!

Mungkin ini perbualan biasa tapi untuk saya ianya berbau dengan tekanan dan sindiran. Termampu untuk senyum dan senyap pada waktu itu. Oh my! Things are not going like I plan. Apabila diceritakan pada sahabat2 yang yang sudi menemani saya pada hari itu, mereka terkedu. At that moment, I can sense something awful will occur.

30 n0v 2oo8

Start from today, at this moment i'm switch back my old 012 number. No more 019 number. So my friends, please use that line if u wish to contact or sms me. Huaahhh...

And also, I will tell u guys about me being a temporary yuu emm tee refugee. It can be said as a secret that i keep quite safe from all of you. No one knows even my family. I'm sure u guys would not believe for what i've done. Till then, wait for my untold story.

Hey Peeps!

I'm coming home next week Wednesday, 3rd December 2008!

Will be in Malaysia for a month, so I am hoping to see you guys real soon!

Ann, nanti Yati nak bawak mak balik Johor, boleh singgah Muar deh? Mun pun, I might just pop up at JB!

Nurul, seperti biasa, nanti Yati turun KT!

Kak Sofie, this one we know already lah kan...

Abg Pi, Pojan, maaf tak ada jajan dari Australia, jajan kena tunggu balik for good next year. :p

Sitot, ada nak pesan journal sebarang dua? :p

Terhangat di pasaran

Sabtu lepas, sempena meraikan pemergian mak abah aku ke tanah suci, Wan (nenek) buat kenduri tahlil dan doa selamat di kampung kami di Tampin, Negri Sembilan. Tah kenapa, walaupun sibuk menjaga atuk yang sakit, Wan tak mahu ambil katering. Dia berkeras juga nak masak hidangannya sendiri, dengan lauk pauknya yang empat lima macam; ayam merah, ayam gulai, ikan tenggiri masak lemak cili api, gulai labu, pajeri udang, acar nenas, bla, bla, bla... 

Dah anak menantu perempuannya ramai, kitaorang pun turutkan saja.

Pagi hari kenduri, selaku cucu sulung yang menurut perintah, aku dan Pura ikut mama ke pasar basah Tampin. Seperti biasa, aku la drebar. sampai di parking lot pasar (or tanah lapang berlopak, if you prefer), aku mula mencari slot sesuai, a.k.a tanah rata yang kering. Di sebelah kereta kami ada sebuah kereta Waja. Aku jenguk ke dalam, ada anak jantan belasan tahun melesa di driver's seat main handphone. Berdasarkan enjinnya yang masih hidup dan keadaan cuaca yang maha terik, sah la aircond dia full blast..

Sambil kunci pintu kereta, hati aku ngomel: Tu dia! Anak perempuan malang mana la yang duk pi biar mak dia mengangkut barang sorang-sorang dalam pasar tuh..

Mak aku bergegas ke dewan yang bingitnya macam hurungan ribuan lalat. Mulutnya pun lebih kurang sama, menyuruh aku cepat, cepat dan cepat lagi. Aku dan Pura berlari anak menurut, bila aku ternotice  sesuatu yang buat aku mati langkah.

Satu... dua... tiga... empat, lima... MasyaAllah!

Aku baru sedar, satu parking lot tu dipenuhi kereta yang setiapnya dihuni khusus kaum adam! Jangan nak kata anak orang; bapak orang, atuk orang pun ada. Semua dengan aksi-aksi tersendiri: yang membaca, yang membuta, yang bergayut.. Yang pastinya, semua nyaman dalam aircond. Tak macam anak, kakak atau isteri yang berasak-asak di luar.  

Aku memandang kelibat mama yang makin jauh. Ma, nasib kamu pun sama...

Sampai di pasar, aku order tujuh ekor  ayam, pastu terus ke area sayur. Mata aku meliar, mengira bilangan lelaki yang ada. Beberapa kerat yang aku nampak semuanya golongan veteran. Biasa la tu. Wan aku pun baru sekarang ini pandai ke pasar. Dulu, atuk yang menguruskan semua. Wan hanya tinggal memasak dan menghidang.   

Which I think is fair... Dulu isteri di rumah, suami bawa pulang rezeki hari. Sekarang isteri pun cari rezeki hari-hari, isteri pun ke pasar, isteri pun masak... camana tu? bayangkan mengangkut ayam, ikan, sayuran dan barang-barang dapur, all in one go. It's hell, take it from someone who does it on her own every other week!

Tak apa lah. Agaknya wanita zaman ini makin penyayang...

Haish, serabut. Sedang aku memilih daun ketumbar, Pura menyiku. bibirnya menjuih ke arah luar pasar. Ada pasangan muda hand in hand memilih kentang. "Tu, tu... endangered species!" 

Aku tergelak. Ah, rupanya adik aku pun perasan situasi di parking lot. Melihat pasangan macam ni, normally aku pasti ngomel, get your own room!  Tapi, dengan perang perasaan aku pagi ni, such views were a welcome sight. Sedang aku asyik meneliti, Pura menyiku aku lagi. 

"How long do you think before he'll go extinct?" 

  

My Workspace

I got tagged by Kak Aini to put the picture of my workplace. Since I'm not working yet, I suppose my study desk shall suffice. This is where I do all my assignments, write my article, get online, and watch my movies. It's basically my lifeline. Truth be told, I haven't done much works lately, which I think partly can be attributed to the massive social circles and activities I'm building lately. Furthermore, I live with a roommate. So trying to write peacefully and be in 'my elements' is almost always a vain attempt. You see, creativity and people doesn't seem to work out together in my case.

So, on the subject of my workplace. Here's the breakdown of its components:

1. The board I bought at the beginning of the semester. I accustom myself to pasting things which inspire me on the walls, but since I'm renting, I'm not allowed to damage the walls. It was partially filled now because I had removed most of the things after my final exam.
2. The red tumbler is my long-serving coffee cup. In the winter, it retains heat for almost an hour for my coffee or tea, which is convenient since the cold weather rips off the heat almost instantly every time I try to drink hot coffee or tea.
3. NIVEA lotion which I use faithfully after bath in the morning and night.
4. The corner for books change with whatever work I need to complete at the moment. Right now it's a bunch of books from Lonely Planet, Rough Guides on Australia and several DVDs I picked up from downstair.
5. As you can peek in the drawer, there are 5 DVDs I'm renting, a package of cookies and my collection of magazines.
6. My laptop and the headphone, of course, which renders everything comprehensible.

That's it, not much of a workplace if I may say. And I'll moving out of the house soon, so you can expect a new workplace in a month!

Lalala :)

Jumaat yg lepas 14 nov
Tonton satu rancangan lewat tengah hari kat TV3
Rancangan favourite jugak la
Mata lekat di TV tapi hati tak tau hilang ke mana
Akhir cerita ada kata pujangga
Benar2 mengingatkan pada saya yang pernah melihat senyum gelak tawa insan2 penting dlm hidup

"Ukhuwah yang sejati bukan terletak pada pertemuan atau manis bicara tapi terletak pada ingatan tulus seorang teman di dlm doanya" Imam Al Ghazali

ps: I'm missing u all ! :)

Haha!

Oh God, you wouldn't believe what makes me laughing these past few days.

US! Yes, not United States, but Us as in Kita! :)

Dok baca archives in our blog, walking down the memory lane. Stories about so many little things which makes up our life; Nurul and coklat cenkudu, etc.

Hahaha!

Okay, I missed you guys - badly! :p

Class of 2008

Greetings

It has been pretty quite out here since my 'ranting'. Ahem. Anyway, just want to take this opportunity to wish all you guys out there, Ann, Hajar, Isma, Lutfi, Mun, Nurul, Sitot, Kak Sofie & Yati, Selamat Hari Raya & maaf zahir batin. :D

I hope you guys have a great Raya with family, while having tasty food and delicious cookies. Can you sense resentment? :P Nah, just kidding! Have a great time!

p/s: Next stop, Japan! :)

Hi Kawan-Kawan

Saje je nak blog kat sini dlm BM sbb tensen. Ekceli, nak kongsi cite sedih. Saje nak pakai kata ganti diri 'aku' tuk effect yang lebih dramatik. Lgpun aku tengah tensen tahap gaban.

Boleh tak supervisor aku tak berjaya dapatkan hostel tuk aku? Pastu dia nak aku tido kat mana? Tepi jalan? Sengal tul. Klu bagitau awal2 takpela gak, boleh usahakan skit. Ni baru nak bagitau skrg.

Pastu yang lagi tak tahan tu dia nak gi Europe & Indonesia skrg, pastu dia kata dia takleh nak layan email aku. Damn... Ni yang aku benci ni. Buat penat je beli tie bermotif batik tuk dia. Camni dia layan aku?

Dahla tak carikan bilik, pastu ada ke patut dia pass kat orang lain tuk tolong. Ok fine, at least dia cuba nak tolong kot. Sorang tu assistant kat lab dia pastu sorang lagi student PhD. Supervisor aku suruh contact dua2 tuk minta tolong.

Boleh plak assistant dia buat bodoh pastu cakap suruh deal dgn mamat PhD! Dhla mamat tu orang Brazil. Ok, tak mau kutuk dia lebih2 sbb mamat Brazil tu nak amek aku kat airport. Ingatkan orang Jepun sbb nama cam orang Jepun, rupanya aku tertipu. Tak kisah pun, sebab tak comel pun mamat tu. Muka cam kawan ayah aku.. Hahahaha...

Aku dh cuba sedaya upaya nk contact mamat Brazil tu tapi dia tak reply email aku. Tak guna tul. Klu aku kaya takpela gak, aku tak kisah. Blh aku fly kat situ awal2 & survey tmpt tinggal aku. Ataupun dok je kat mana2 apartment private, takyah risau. Tp aku tak kaya kan, nak buat cane. Klu aku kaya, takdela nk apply scholarship ni smp tahap nk mati.

Klu aku dpt dok kat hostel tu pun dh kira murah giler standard Jepun wpun aku rasa mahal je sbb bilik tu kecik je. Tp skrg ni aku tak tau nak buat ape. Nak merempat kat mana? Mcm la aku ni slalu travel ke Jepun tu & tau segala adat diorg ke ape. Aku kenal pun 2 orang. Dhla sorang tu kat Msia & dia blk lps raya.

Yang sorang lagi bdk cina. Dia mmg baik ar sbb offer tinggal dgn dia sementara aku dpt bilik tetap. Tp masalahnya dia dok dgn boyfren dia. Tak kan aku nk stay skali. Cam sewel je. Ada la jugak orang lain yang offer tmpt tinggal sementara tp smp bila kan. Aku dahla tak suka sgt kacau orang camtu. Rasa bersalah ok.

Skrg ni aku ada lagi satu pilihan, hostel yang agak jauh skit & lebih mahal. Nk jln kaki tak larat la kot, melainkan aku nk jd sprinter tuk Malaysia kat Olympics 2010. Nk naik basikal pun takleh sbb aku tak reti. Terpaksla naik bas & aku dngr tambang bas stp hari RM15. Hmm.. Papa kedana la aku camni...

Tp aku harap aku dpt la hostel jauh & mahal ni dr tak dpt langsung. Dhla first time nk gi sana, aku lagi sanggup dok dgn orang kat rumah sewa dr dok sorang. At least smp aku dh biasa dgn tempat tu. Dhla nk winter... Tolong ar.. Dahla aku ni suka homesick slalu... Klu ada kwn tak terasa sgt.

Aku btl2 harap mamat Brazil tu akan reply emel aku secepat mungkin. Tensen bangat!

Aku tak faham...Klu nk sgt buka universiti, pesal tak nk sediakan hostel tuk semua student? Susah sgt ke? Cam kat kuantan tu. Tu kira ok lagi la kan sbb universiti usahakan la gak wpun mmg menyusahkan student. Tp lg elok dr kena cari sendiri.

Dhla international student... Pehal la diorg takde sistem yang elok skit. Tu la, selama ni dok negara sendiri tak terasa sgt. Ni nk dok negara orang lain jap, barula terasa betapa susahnya. Tak smp lg ni kat Jepun pun dh pening kepala aku.

Klu ada Malaysian Hall ke takpela gak. Yang ada pun kat Tokyo. Aiyaiyaiyai... Aku pun dh tak tau nak buat cane. Dhla kena gi 1st day raya. Sedihla gak masa dpt tau, tp terfikir ok je sbb blh lg sambut raya pagi tu. Kira dh tak down sgt la, pastu tambah plak dgn takde tmpt tinggal, aku mmg rasa nak naik hangin. Tp tak ke mana jugak kan.. Apetah dayaku...

Sebelum Terlupa

Kepada adik-adik kesayangan akak di sini dan di perantauan, diucapkan

selamat menyambut bulan Ramadhan Al-Mubarak!

..Semoga Ramadhan tahun ni, kita kurang ingat makan dan lebih ingat Allah..

Happy Convocation Day!!!

Nak sambung buat assignment, tak dapat. Nak update blog, tak dapat. I keep repeating the tracks "Mentera Semerah Padi" by M. Nasir, my blood is simply bursting with spirit and excitements!

Walaupun jauh, walaupun tak ada dengan kawan-kawan, I feel as if I am able to fly and be there at heart with all of you guys!

It's really not a matter of the occassion itself, I'm not there, my family couldn't be there on behalf of me too, I am pretty sure they had somehow anticipate the event as much as I was. But nevertheless, today is definitely a cause for celebration, and I will not let my absence cease the spirit from flowing through my blood, and yours.

We had worked hard, with our sweat, tears, and blood. We had fought hard, struggled against all odds.

Now we made it, all of us. We're way steps ahead. We no longer dwell in our past, we're moving forward.

We made it!!!

CONGRATULATIONS!!!

Pre-graduation Euphoria!

See u guys there!!!

Masalah...

Salam,

As everyone knows, kita semua akan convo ahad ni. For some of us, there's also makan-makan lepas tu. I think everyone has recieved a long message about Shana's request for a last gathering of btb (including ones going to post-convo party) sometime before or after the convo ceremony, but somehow we've been having problems with confirming attendence.

I have a suggestion.. Boleh tak kalau kita semua meet up for let's say minum petang or early dinner kat convest ke? the day before the convo... Tak lama pun takpe; we can meet around 5 pm and be back at the hotel/home before 9 pm, so plenty of time to get convo stuff ready. Lagipun, some people need to see me to get convo robes, right? ^^

So, please lemme know, via sms ke, comment ke.. Sebab on Monday after the convo, I cannot attend Shana's brunch. Akak keje and because I just started, takleh nak amik cuti... T.T

Sorry Arshana...

thanks guys!

Untuk kawan-kawan yang tak pernah tengok Yati pakai skirt...

Tadaaa!!!

Selamat berkonvo kawan-kawanku semua!

:)

Erm, kawan-kawan...

*shy*

Sukacita dimaklumkan bahawa kak opie ada blog baru di hutanhujanku.blogspot.com.

Sekian, time kacih...

Lalalala Kerja!

A smile is so contagious,

You could catch it like the flu.

When someone smiled at me today,

I started smiling too.

I passed around the corner,

And someone saw my grin,

And when he smiled I realized,

I'd passed it on to him.

I thought about that smile again,

And realized its worth,

A simple smile from you to me,

Could travel round the earth.

So if you feel a smile begin,

Don't leave it undetected,

Let's start an epidemic, quick!

And get the world infected!

Here's to hoping that today - my first day as an RA at UKM - goes without a hitch... However, should anything bad happens, I am counting on the rest of my friends to keep smiling and cheer me on!

Ganbattebayo minna san!

Tertekan

Boleh tak kalau aku taknak jadi RA kat UKM?

*sigh* dua tiga hari kebelakangan ni, benda tu je la yang berenang-renang kat dalam minda aku…

Kekadang aku rasa cam mengada-ngada. Dah diberi peluang, nak tolak plak. Bukannya benda tak elok. Dari segi pengalaman dan preparation untuk masters di FRIM nanti, RAship ni sangat membantu. Lagipun, supervisor aku dah chayo tahap cipan supaya aku dapat the best training (a.k.a dengan supervisor dia dulu la..) Jadi, siapa la aku untuk menolak.

Pernah tak bila orang bercerita sesuatu kat kita, kita pun kata dalam hati, InsyaAllah, tak jadi kat aku…? Dulu masa Ann bercerita tentang UMT, aku bersimpati. Tapi sebab bukan batang hidung aku yang kena, reaksi aku cuma setakat ‘berat mata memandang’ je la. Tapi la ni, bila dah terkehel hidung sendiri…

Isnin lepas, dengan berkobar-kobarnya aku ke UKM (bertemankan Myvi baru mama ^-^). Hajat di hati nak settlekan RAship, pastu berjinak-jinak dengan supervisor baru. Starting kat lobby fakulti, aku dibawa berjumpa penyelia projek. Orangnya tinggi, gelap dan serious. Aku rasa cam nak lari, tapi... Anyway, kat situ lagi dah rasa tak sedap hati. Katanya, aku belum boleh jadi RA sebab aku belum tamat belajar. Padahal, dalam permohonan dah aku sertakan surat dari KOS yang certify aku ni dah grad by confirmation of the senate… Kut tak faham bahasa inggeris tu, tak tau la plak...

Things got worse bila penyelia bawa aku jumpa supervisor. Awalnya, she seemed nice.. Sampai depan bilik dia, aku tinjau dia ada discussion dengan student. Aku diminta tunggu di ruang legar. So, aku pun tunggu la.. lima minit, sepuluh minit, lima belas, tiga puluh... Aku dah mula rimas. Dah pukul dua belas setengah, pukul satu aku ada appointment. So aku decide untuk pergi tunggu depan bilik dia.

The hall to her room was small and under construction.. there was dust and debris everywhere. Aku cari kerusi yang agak mulia, aku duduk berdepan dengan pintu. Dalam aku menunggu camtu, aku dapat dengar conversation dalam bilik dia. Nak kata discussion pasal benda penting, bunyinya macam bersembang.. Aku tingkatkan kesabaran. Semua yang lalu hall tu terpinga-pinga tengok aku. Aku rasa cam nak ketuk pintu; aku takut dia terlupa. Tapi, tangan aku tak tergerak. Lima belas minit dia keluar. Agak terkejut tengok aku tercegat depan bilik. Dia teragak-agak; aku pakat diam.

“Er, I have some students with me right now… why don’t you tunggu I kat depan sana. Are you in a hurry?”

Aku berdiri. Nak tak nak aku terpaksa beritahu dia yang aku ada errand lain selepas tu. Serta-merta mukanya menjadi 'kurang manis'. Agaknya dia expect jawapan yang lebih kepada that’s okay, my time is not important.. Dari body language nya aku tahu dia upset. Nada suaranya berubah. Tetiba je, “So bila you boleh start? Quickly! Sebelum puasa I nak settlekan semua. Time is money, you know!”

Berderau darah aku bila dengar. Aku datang jauh-jauh semata-mata nak jumpa dia.. Pendek cerita, sambil berdiri-diri depan ofisnya, dia minta email dan nombor hp aku. Suruh aku contact dia ASAP bila dah sedia. Yang paling sedih, dah nak tutup pintu baru teringat nak tanya nama. Sedang aku recite nama penuh, pintu pun rapat... Cukup la aku rasa macam sampah.

Haish..

Kalau ikutkan hati,

Aku nak baring dalam perahu dan hanyut terus dalam arus sungai Tahan..
Aku nak berenang kat Lubuk Tenor, nak bagi ikan makan tiap-tiap hari...
Aku nak main canoe, dimana untuk menggerakkannya aku hanya perlu menyanyi...
aku nak makan masakan Dabang, dan dengar petikan gitarnya yang sangat best sampai ke pagi...
Aku dah penat, aku nak rehat (walaupun hakikatnya aku tak mula pun lagi...)

*sigh* Orang kata, home is where the heart is. Kalau camni la, aku rasa aku kena tukar alamat...

Sebab Korang Semua Dah dan Akan Melalui Program Makan-Makan Yang Best, Maka Yati Pun Nak Berkongsi Cerita Di Sini Jugak

Assalammualaikum dan Salam Sejahtera.

Berhubung perkara di atas, sukacita dimaklumkan bahawa pihak JPA sydney akan menaja tiket kepada pelajar sempena Malam Gema Merdeka pada 23 Ogos 2008 jam 8.00-11.00 malam bertempat di Science Theatre UNSW.

Tajaan ini adalah termasuk tiket dan makanan (pack food) kepada pelajar-pelajar JPA yang hadir. Semua pelajar adalah digalakkan untuk menghadiri Malam Gema Merdeka ini bagi mengeratkan lagi hubungan di antara pelajar-pelajar di sekitar Sydney, di samping dapat bersama-sama dengan pegawai PPL Australia, Puan Haslina Abdul Hamid dan pegawai-pegawai dari Consulate of Malaysia untuk memberi sokongan padu kepada penganjur
yang menubuhkan sebuah persatuan pelajar di NSW.


Sehubungan dengan itu, para pelajar dikehendaki membalas e-mail ini dengan menyatakan "HADIR" atau "TIDAK HADIR" berserta dengan nama dan universiti bagi memudahkan pihak kami menyenaraikan kehadiran dan tempahan tiket. Sila beri maklum balas ini selewat-lewatnya pada 16 Ogos 2008. Kerjasama daripada semua pelajar amatlah kami hargai.

Maklumat lanjut berkaitan dengan Malam Gema Merdeka 2008 ini boleh didapati di laman web http://www.malamgemamerdeka.com/

Sekian, terima kasih.

Mohd Hamim Yasiran
(JPA Sydney)

P/S: Makan free, hiks :p

സയ അട സത് സോളന്,

അപ പെരസാന് യതി (൨൯ ഒക്ടോബര് ൨൦൦൮) ദാന് അര്ശന (൨൫ ഡിസംബര് ൨൦൦൮)സെലെബ്രറെബര്ത്ഡേ ദിഒരന്ഗ് കത റെമ്പറ്റ് പേരന്ടാന് സോരന്ഗ്-സോരന്ഗ്??

ഹഹചചത്ച

Here, There & Everywhere

Hiya folks! With Isma's wedding all wrapped up, what's up with the rest of us? No, I'm not hinting anything.

Looks like all of us are here, there and pretty much everywhere. So I thought I'd be good to update everyone about everyone else.

1. Ann: Fellow at Universiti Malaysia Terengganu and doing her Masters on post-harvest modification at Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia. But she's at home right now. :p
2. Lutfi: Just wrapped up his RA at UIA and heading to Universiti Darul Iman. As a tutor.
   
3. Nurul: At Universiti Darul Iman also. Last I heard it's something similar to being a lab demo. She's in charge of Food Microbiology.
4. Kak Sofie: RA at FRIM and Masters at Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia.
   
5. Isma: Married and heading to Scotland.
6. Hajar: At Universiti Sains Malaysia, Kelantan.
7. Sitot: A possible Masters at UNIMAS. That's in Sarawak by the way.
   
8. Mun: Tutor at Universiti Teknologi Malaysia, Johor.
9. Yati: Masters at Sydney.
10. Me: Japan.
    

lintas Lansung Perkahwinan ISMA dan SIR di KELANTAN

SIR BERSEMBUNYI DISEBALIK ISTERI TERCINTA.

"Jauh sket dari husband I boleh tak Pojan," kata Isma.

Tuan Caracol paling suka gambar nih, Isma nampak sangat manja.....

Dengan adik sir...

Masa ni, sir baru jer baru baling bunga kat peminat2 dari beranda....teka, sapa yang dapat bunga tuh??? Hehhaehae

Akak, biru tua tak sesuai untuk kamu.

Romantic kan bilik nih??

Happy belated-Birthday Nurul.

Aiks, akak sakit mate ker atau kenyit mate tu???

i wolud like to wish u, "Salam. Slmat ulang tahun khdpan yg lbih setahun satu hari tua sejak 1984"

Carlos and Cleopatra would like to say...

... the writer of this entry misses all of you sorely, she wishes she could send in some of the apple pie she baked today to you guys.

:)

Love,
Ati - Coogee, 2.13 a.m.

Isma's Kenduri

Here are the pictures once again. And once again, Isma looks gorgeous. Lagi cantik dari nikah! You go girl!

Waiting for our turn to take picture with the couple

Dalam bilik pengantin :p

That's all for this time. Didn't get to take as many pictures as compared to nikah coz' more people this time around.

p/s: Kenduri belah sir saya pass kat Nurul & Hajar tuk update!

G'day!!!

The view of Coogee Beach on the way through the park near my house.

My single room!

These are some of my reading materials which need to be completed by half of this semester alone! *Die*~

Anyways, I've set up a blog in replacement of my TripJournal, because I'll have to pay for it after 30 days. :p

See ya at In Search for McLeod's Country! Be patient with my slow writing tho, it's coming to pieces soon!

Love you guys,
Ati.

bodo-bodo 2

Tuan mesti ingat ini. Tuan pernah ada satu kesukaan yang keji. Di satu ruang yang isolated, Tuan akan korek hidung. Tuan korek bersyarat; korek tanpa disedari orang lain.Korek. Korek. Dan korek lagi hingga bersih air filter. Lepas puas mengorek, Tuan akan sentuh barang-barang orang lain dengan gembira.

Bila ditanya; "Kamu buat apa?"
Cepat dijawab; "Gua buat bodo!!!"

Isma's Nikah

Yesterday was Isma's nikah. The very first in our batch. A big congratulations to her and Sir. Here are the pictures, in sequential order. Click on it for a bigger version.

Mrs-To-Be

Hantaran

Pelamin

Still Mrs-To-Be

The extended family

The bride & groom

Looking forward to seeing the rest of you guys (who couldn't make it) during the kenduri next week. Ta!

Graduation

The new name of this blog made me think, hey how come no one spoke about graduation yet? So I shall and try not to bore you to tears in the process.

Our convocation will be on 24 August 2008 (coincidently it's my brother's birthday & 2 days after Isma's). Like I've mentioned a gazillion times to you guys, we're having mortar hat this year. Yipee! Sorry, but I think all those Western movie do have an effect on how you perceive certain things in life. For me it was no mortar hat no convocation. Plus, I heard we're getting new robes.

The rental for the robe is still unannounced. Maybe it's free. The picture package costs RM35 and includes 3 pieces of photographs with varying size. We're not allowed to take pictures in the hall, so we don't really have a choice but buy the package. Bummer.

There's gonna be a CD containing the entire convocation program. Each costs RM20. My suggestion is all of us just share and buy one & then we burn a copy for each one of us. Brilliant huh? :D

I can just imagine how we will all be in a photography-frenzy, snapping pictures until the batteries die out. The only thing missing would be Yati. Yati, if you can make it, make it 'k. :)

Oh, by the way, you guys interested in going for the post-convo dinner? Jomla... Dulu kan tak sempat join seniors. Yes? No? Maybe?


My pathetic attempt of Photoshop-ing mortar boards on all of us. Hey, at least Yati's in it.

Happy Convocation dear friends! And congratulations! Those four years were worth it.

p/s: Click on the picture for a clearer (and bigger) image.

Hye folks..

Hari-hari kerjanya....

Melihat-lihat calender mencari-cari bila waktu akan sampai weekend. Atau kalau-kalau ada hari yang boleh berlibur. Tetapi, selalunya Tuan hampa. Hari CUTI adalah hari untuk BEKERJAYA. Itu definisi Tuan dalam setahun dua yang mendatang. InsyaAllah.Nyata, Allah itu adil. Ada BISA, lawannya PENAWAR. Ada juga kawan-kawan dan saudara jauh yang sudi mengubat luka anak perantauan. TAERIMA KASIH KAMU.

Hari-hari kerjanya....

Menunggu e-mail. Menunggu jawapan dari UMP. Peringkat university sudah lepas. Yang dirisaukan pada KPT. Come on lah kerajaan, gua bukan nak gi oversea pun!!!!! USM Kubang Kerian jer, bukan Oxford. Janganlah kedekut sangat walau gua tak pangkah lu dalam PRU lalu. Sorry emo sket.

Hari-hari kerjanya....

Constant readers:

1. Apa barang gua belum dapat kad kawin Isma??? Rasa terpinggir siot!

2. Di maklumkan lagi, Tuan Caracol mengalami masalah kewangan sekarang, maklumlah, gaji probation untuk beberapa bulan ni ialah RM625 (selepas ditolak KWSP). Jadi talian 0192419677 telah diterminatekan. Sebarang "perhubungan" boleh diteruskan melalui 0139156946. Terima kasih.

Hari-hari kerjanya...

Mencari supervisor yang cukup mantap untuk projek Masters; Berborak dengan hopefully-soon-to-be field supervisor Dr. Christine Fletcher; Memburu apa saja scholarship yang ada di atas muka bumi.

Hari-hari kerjanya..

tertanya-tanya pada diri: betul ke apa yang aku nak buat ni? Is this the best choice for me? What if it doesn't lead me to where I want to be? Will I succeed?

Hari-hari kerjanya..

Bershukur diberi peluang bersaing dengan kawan-kawan, dan diletakkan atas haluan yang lebih mendekatkan diri kepada dream career. Alhamdulillah.

Haish.. hopefully things will get better from here on out. I'm exhausted from trying to keep being positive. But, I will count my blessings. I know others have had worser times than me. Like Ati and Ann and Arshana and Nurul and Isma and Mun and Sitot and Pojan and Luppi.. They've worked so hard and still managed to keep their heads up high all the way.. And now it's my turn.

Aja! Fighting!

Hello Peeps!

It's been a really long time since I wrote an entry in BTB. Anyhow, I thought I would shake things up a bit. The truth is, I kinda missed you guys. :)

Isma, Yati minta maaf sebab tak dapat bersama on your special day. I know it was not right, please forgive me? Yati nak minta izin dan restu Isma before I leave for Sydney, mohon maaf atas segala salah dan silap dan halalkan makan minum. Even if we won't meet anytime soon, hopefully we can send each other off with dua' in our hearts. Selamat berbahagia, dear friend!

To everyone, selamat menempuh alam baru! Tak kiralah alam bekerja, alam belajar, alam perkahwinan, alam ibu bapa (ops, terlajak pulak :p), I wish you all the best of times and happiness!

May 19th

Hari-hari kerjanya...
Melemparkan senyuman manis pada PA Dean
Pastu tanya, " KJ ada? ada hal sket nak bincang."
Jika KJ ada, makna nya wujudlah sesuatu yang bermanafaat. Jika tidak...

Syukur. Segala nya berjalan lancar walaupun otak tak berapa lancar. Untuk Master, UKM menjadi pilihan. Luar negeri terpaksa dilupakan hatta tiada restu ibu. Alahai...

Permohonan sudah dihantar. Tunggu tawaran. Meeting cuti belajar dan biasiswa. And here i come!

From Food Biotechnology to Postharvest Biology and Technology. Sounds bad huh? I'm going to agriculture.

Live ur life as an academic fellow wasn't great. Trust me. The only job is to find a place to continue ur study. Duration is 6 months. Things that matter is the salary. Not bad.

As long as u're an academic fellow, not allowed to involve in lecture, marking paper etc. How B.O.R.I.N.G! i love meeting with people a.k.a students

Circumtances are different. When u're no longer a student, people treats u just like u're adult enough to handle it. Smart enough to solve it. Sounds harsh but this is academic people life. I begin to understand.

Last week, i had a meeting with TNC (Tim. Naib. Caunselor). Told to finish the postgrad study as fast as u can, get married and have child as many as u can while u're still young and as a researcher and a lecturer three matters have been points out:

Mengajar. Menyelidik. Menulis.

And for me, whether u publish or perish. heh

Just can't believe it. Dare enough?

5th May 2008

What if
What if I was the rain
Would I be able to connect to someone's heart
Like the rain connects the never-intersecting sky and earth..

~drowning me~