Have you ever wonder how much difference there is between the existence and the absence of something?
At one time, he's there. Jumping playfully around you, pushing his wet nose to your hand, to your face, to your eyes. You look at him, amazed at how a tiny being is made so full of spirit that it nourishes the diminishing hope in your hearts.
Then, at another time, he's there. Sleeping peacefully, his chest rise and fall perfectly as it should be. Silently you yearn to be just like him, without a slight care to the world he's just happy all the time. You smile at him and as if he knows, he opened his eyes slowly looking at you just to assure you that he understood.
These are set in you memories, something that you will never forget. He clings onto your heart, evermore.
Suddenly, just like a blink of an eye, one word change it all.
He's not there anymore.
You tried to reach out, to hold, to touch.You tried to feel again that warm feeling of love, of belonging, and of compassion.
Nothing, empty, lifeless.
You felt your hands cold, your body shivers, something from the past is coming to the back of your head. Everything turned black, you felt helpless, confused, scared. All strengths that you've been building all this while vanished, it diffused out you cannot see where it goes.
And it breaks your heart to admit that he has left you now, forever.
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Ati...i feel sorry for it. Hakikatnya setiap yg hidup akan pergi. Yg paling menyedihkan ia pergi pada masa kita amat perlukan ia. Insya-allah jika benar kita sayangkan ia, pasti ia menanti kita di pintu syurga...
Lutfi,
Yes. I know, I know, I know. I've learnt my lesson. :)
But it's not wrong to recognize and let your feelings out isn't it?
Ann,
Thanks Ann, that's what I'm hopeful for. In sya Allah. Hearts will grow stronger out of pain and despair.
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